Snowday Blues

UGH I miss my friends at school!!!!! Im soo fucking bored. The only thing i seem to day all day is play on my laptop. well anyway rightnow snowdays suck. I wish somthing cool would happen like the power goes off or somthing. Ughh thats all i do on snowdays and well think of the love of my life.... i am not going to tell your freaks who i love sooo SHUT UP. Oh well enjoy the snowdays

Fitting in

I have never felt like i have ever fit in at my school. Im always on the outside alo and scaried. I have friends behinde me but how long will they stay. Its not them you see its me. I can be a total bitch and thats when everyone leaves. I have had that happen alot latly. I miss my old friends but they don't care anymore. Why should i? I still dont know what trust is and i used to but a lot of people hurt me and i cant feel that way anymore until..........

I finally got one person or well a few people behind me. I hope they stay for a long time but who knows i could mess up again which im hoping not. I still dont think that everything will be peacy. I still have scarres from all the lies but some have vanished. How i dont know. Well the people im talking about are the usual people. It kindof seems like they are my only friends. Yes I am a loser for all the people who would like to know. HAHA