How many times do I have to be the one to lose and let people come and go. I learned to not trust people with my feelings and I do it again. Geez old habits are hard to break. I might not have a party on my bday because I really want Bliss to be there. If that means anything to you which I hope so. Another birthday alone and sad. How thoughtful mom and dad. Hey I get a dog tomorrow which is excting. I just feeling my depression coming back and I can't feel that way anymore. I felt that for way to long but somehow my depression gets the best of me and I lose all the people I love. How this happens I dont know why? Can I be lonly again. I just got a new text from phil and that makes me happy (dont ask). Im falling again and somehow this feels different than before when I had these depressed times. I feel like I will fall but I will literaly have nothing left to help me up. Why is that? If anyone cares anymore please help. Maybe this is all because of my birthday. I might not even celebrate it this year, I really dont care anymore. HELP ME PLEASE!!!
Katie
