Really?

Could i really be happy? Or is this some kind of other demation. I have the greatest friends and it making me cry right now. My friends really have my back no matter what. I deal with a lot and sometimes it hurts way to much that i give up. I could have never of had gone through it without all of them by my side. I hope you all care about this but if you dont then thats fine. I no I had to go to the consulers once (EEEWWWW) because some one thought i was depressed which i wasn't but at least i knew some one cared about me to tell someone. All i know is that all i have dealt with is starting to go away. Some how it doesn't feel real. Could i mess this up? Is this a dream? I mean i have been in drama along LONG time and its sometimes all i can talk about. But Carly, Megan, Bliss, Melissa and many more people have shone me that life isnt all about fights or drama, it can be fun and all i can hope for is that is will last hopefully. How anyone could have ever been in the situation I was in and take it littly would be that day where i will kill that person haha because they dont have a heart. Thanks i really do feel amazing not great at home but when im with you guys you make me feel like im a million dollars and i havnt felt this way in a long time. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I coudlnt tell you how i feel becuase you guys did alot for me and I really REALLY apperatate it.

Family Problems

Jeez I am the 5th wheel in my house.I cant stand all these problems. My parents wonder why i stay in my room so long. Theres always somthing that me and my mom or brother mikey are fighting about. "Ohh you are just PMSing Katie." Really you never really know my problems at all. I have been deling with them all alone and knwo would ever know my problems and how cares huh? NOT YOU. i somtime am just ignored but why i dont know. I just am in a rut waiting for my mom to care. I felt i could tell her anything until she started babing them to my family and its annoying. I dont say any of her secerts. No one really will understand huh? Hahah i really am in a hell of a mood. I just dont understand my family. They never had love so they dont know how to show it unless its getting us presents and then telling us that we are the bad children when they never got anything. Well then i would rather give back everything if you were more like a friend paremts instend of mean crazy protective people. I mean im really dont with all the fighting so there