Trevor

I know he will never read this and i dont want him too, well not yet. Im too afraid of him and every time i see him in gym or the halls I get all scared and run away. How can I feel this way toward a guy who I hate. Time for me to come out with the truth. Im done lieing my heart is shattered by everthing that has happened. Why couldn't we have been like 2 normal kids in middle school. Just be friends and hang out, joke around and ya. I cant hide everything I have done to him and myself. I ruined it and I just laughed it off. Was it more serious then i thought? Well to him it was, I can't take the pain anymore. The pain has gottan to much to handle. My best friend Melissa has a super awesome boyfriend and everyday I want that. I screwed up really badly but I dont regret it. I am who i am and for then people who thinks he's ugly or a jerk SHUT UP. I can say that i have a perfecly good reason to but i dont. I dont care about him, but he is not a terrible guy. I hope that he doesnt hate me too much for screwing up and i dont expect him to be my friend anytime soon. I am finnaly glad to write down my feeling and relax.

Carly

SQUUUUUUEEEAAKKKKKKK!!!!!! I love this show its hard not to watch it. Soo anyway I am super excited to be really close friends with you. I love hanging out with you and I totally love SQUELING with you. All the things we do together mean the world to me. How close we are and hopefully how close we will get will just be amaxing. Being weird is our specialty. Buttery popcorn is SO good. Your really a true friend carly and i hope you remember that!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING ME BFFL