Tired and sad

Good new and bad news. Bad news always goes first which thats what i do when i have a good test grade and a bad test grade. Ok so the bad news is that Im stuck inbeween having a friend and losing a friend. I mean shes been my best friend since 3rd grade but unforturely they people she hangs with are total jerks and call me name. I want to be her friend but i cant with those losers. She just cant give up her old friends becuase shes afraid she will hve no friends. Thats not true for her. Well she hopefully with figure that out soon. Ok for the good new well i made a good idea for my bday thing that i just cant figure out. I was going to post pone it and wait a weekend after but who knows if thats going to work. I was also thinking if i should even have a party at all WAIT can't hve it the weekend after thats Bliss's bday. Nevermind im not having a party its just way to hard. Now im tired, sad, and now upset. Stupid Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love.......

What do i love? I am not totally sure what that is yet. I mean I love my friends like sisters but other then that i dont really know what i truly love. I fell in love with many of my friends (treaver is not my friend) I just never get love. I mean when im in love its so noticeable and its sad. I start getting nervus and i seem to always seem to be staring at the gut i like and its just so pathict. I mean really pathic. Ya so for the people who see me looking around in Gym or the lower 7th grade hall then now you know why or well the people who know who i like. So ya i mean im not totally alone i guess but guys confuse me really. They say we are confusing but guys they could love you until the end of time but not tell you. I mean they are supposed to right? I mean why should the girl do everything for them. Oh well i can tell when some one likes some one its my talent but i never see anyone like me so i must be really stupid or im very unattractive. Im asumming the secound one is it hahahah