The perfect boyfriend for me

They perfect boyfriend would be a guy who doesn't mind to be crazy and have a time to be stupid. Loves me infont of everyone. Holds my hand in public. Hugs me without me asking. Says "I love you, Katie" when im mad at him or for no reason at all. Becomes random at anytime of the day. Calls me at 3 am. Talks to me about his problems. This guy better be out there some where or i would really be mad. I want no need a guy like that. but some how thou i dount i will find him anytime soon.

School.

Why is school a popularity contest? Its not fun when your not one of them. You get treated differently and and looked at like your a freak. Some how thou in all the choas of school and the people in it you notice that most of the people who are popular cant stand it. I have or had a friends that i learned resantly that she hates me and just acts so she can use me or what ever. Sarah is her name not Sarah H but Sarah P. She was always kind to me before anything was named popular or cool. We were great friends but she meet Lexi and to this day i dont like her. She may be a nice person but not to everyone. I know I may not be the coolest person like them but at least im honest with myself. I dont have to treat people like they aren't worthy of my friendship but treat them the same or like an equal to me. Thats how i think school should go. No Popular and for what i no is there is a group 1 and 2 to see who is more popular then the other. WHO THOUGHT OF THAT?????? This is how my school life goes and this is how I know it as. Some day some one out of the cool group maybe even people i dislike suck as Ryan, Eric, Austin, Jake, Jen, Jen yes there is two jens i hate and there are many more who make me sick to my stomack when i see them at fake and weird. Im a weird person and a gothic one but that does not make it right for you to make fun it me or anyone for that matter. I really hope you people dont mess with my friends or me. Guess what if you do then I will beat you up with a spoon if i have to!!!!

Me just Me

Ok I just want to tell you about me. Im Katie, I love the colors Purple, Black (goth i know), Lime Green, and orange. I love pretty little liar which is a show by the way. I play the trumpet and its so fun but my teachers aren't. I can take a joke but i hate when they go to far. I watch Shugo Chara which my besties Carly and Bliss showed me. My fav character from that is The Prince. HES MINE BACK OFF!!!!! Love hanging with friends. My laptop is awesome. Texting = awesome. Don't know what chicken fries are. Dancing in my room when no one looks. Readuing forbidden love books NOT TWILIGHT!!!!! Ummm...... well going crazy every once in a while. Laughing for no reason, looking goth, always making my friends laugh with stupid jokes that are not funny. Sitting doing nothing. Hating gym, like i said wonder about what chicken fries, and most of all loving my dog and the greatest thing ever Aldo.

Trust

Trust. There is never trust. Some one will always lie to you. Say things behind your back and you will do the same. I have my friends have but we are human. If you say you have never lied, you just lied. Lieing happens everywhere and its not the greatest thing to do but its not bad either.I mean would you tell some one to there face that they are dumb or stupid or annoying? No, you wouldn't and you will say yes. I would never call some one a liar when they call me somthign wrong beause i do the same. OH WELL, i enjoy being a liar but im not a liar all the time. LOVE ALL

Love

I have been in love a number of times, some how with me luck, they always end up gone like nothing happened. I always wanted to kiss the right guy, hug a sweet heart, tease a boyfriend. I have never did any of those things right. I have failed with guys. When I day fail I mean FAIL. I never liked a popular guy, never liked a goth, but always liked people in between (carlys blog go see it). I had difficulies with guys but when I had my last crush, it went up in flames. Then somthing hit me like a thousand pounds that i dont need a guy right now I'm only 12 turing 13 next month. All i need right now is the love and support of my friends and guy friends!

Is this really how it ended?

My best friend in the whole world left me and never came back. She didn't really leave me but she left our friendship hanging for people who don't even care about her. I was pushed around way to much from your other friends to stay. You may think I'm a jerk but you know you'll do the same one day. I had to take my time healing but I'm not done. You called me way to many names behind my back to let you in again. I hope you will find the truth about them. I did and it wasn't pretty. I can't take the pain anymore. I cry and cry over what happened but will it ever be different with you? I though i could handle it for you but you never stock up for me but the worst thing was that you went along with it! I have better friends now and I'm sorry for all of this but i cant take all of this hatred, lies, and being fake lightly. I hope you and me with come back but first let me heal and take my new friends.