Fitting in

I have never felt like i have ever fit in at my school. Im always on the outside alo and scaried. I have friends behinde me but how long will they stay. Its not them you see its me. I can be a total bitch and thats when everyone leaves. I have had that happen alot latly. I miss my old friends but they don't care anymore. Why should i? I still dont know what trust is and i used to but a lot of people hurt me and i cant feel that way anymore until..........

I finally got one person or well a few people behind me. I hope they stay for a long time but who knows i could mess up again which im hoping not. I still dont think that everything will be peacy. I still have scarres from all the lies but some have vanished. How i dont know. Well the people im talking about are the usual people. It kindof seems like they are my only friends. Yes I am a loser for all the people who would like to know. HAHA

Anime

I blame half of my friends for me watching anime. My friend Carly was the one who really showed me my fav hahah wont tell you the name because of MEGAN. HAH me and carly have to many meromies with it. Mines the Prince and he is so the oppisite of me LOL. Carly has the gothic angle form hell. HAHA love that name.

weekend BORING

ONMONMONMONMONM that is the sound when you eat. I dont know im so bored. LOL i get to go bwling tomorrow but not all that excited. Have a cold but i dont really care. Stay on my computer all day OHH WELL im already fat hahahahaha. Playing my trumpet because i have a playning test tuesay. AHHHHHHH -_-. OHHHHH NO MY DOGS GOING TO EAT ME jk again really bored blah blah blah blah blah.

Me the goofball

I have writen alot of bad things that have happened in my life but what about the good things i have.
I have made alot of new friends this year withour really knowing it. I mean i knew these people but really weren't as good as friends as we are now. I might get a new dog Berckly i have no idea how to spell it. I am way happier now with my new friends. I mean i had good ones before but they just weren't that nice to me. I can go crazy without worring about what people say anymore. I got my personality and i love being me and if you dont like it I DONT CARE. I have a new laugueg with me and my good friends. I go to the mall like every month and i have to much fun for a girl like me. I know some people think i shouldn't be me and be like the cool kids but who on earth is that fun at all??????? ORANGE. I just ate an orange im insane i lost my sanity years ago OOOOPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is normal?

Everyone tells me im not normal but what is normal. I no i am never be normal compared to the other people at my school but who says that they're normal. I am a goofball and LOVEING IT!!!!!! I just can't stand the fact that its weird to say somthing normal. I mean I am sure im not normal of even close but i still want the person who is completly normal to to comfoward to show me what it is. I love being me and thats all to it but really when you call me unnormal think about it what IS normal?

Pep rally

Today pep rally. I really embressened myself today. IT WAS SO FUN!! Megan and I were dancing like freaks of nature or well i was. Then all of a sudden the assistant prinple comes and looks like he has PMS or somthing and tells up to sit down. WHATTTT??????? Its a pep rally supposed to be peppy? I goth and i was having a better time then the cheerleaders. I went nuts and we were dancing to my song Taco. I was in line for lunch and it was taco day so i made a sone about tacos and its one word TACOS. Anyway, everyone of my friends told me i looked so hilarious but when i got on the bus this asshole next to me tells me
"Everyone in the 8th grade things your retarded" and im all like "What you have nothing else to do all day but harass a 7th grader wow low." That got to him. He didn't talk the whole bus ride when he always calls me goth or somthing. Wow i was soooo happy for once without being called a name. It was nice but i felt bad for what i said well not too bad really. But anywho to day was super fun hope to get yelled at again soon!!!

How could i have lived without you?

I ask myself that everyday. You and me were attached like sisters. But now its hard to believe that ever lasted. I have always wanted to be there with you when you need help but why is it that you always pick the ones who dont care? I mean im always there for you and stick up for you but you never do the same. I can tell I dont care or am not there but thats a lie. I hope that one day our friendship will grow large like your heart but until you leave them I dont know what to do. There fake and always take behind your back. How can you not care? I though it was over but we r still good friends but you know when you need me I will always be there. I enjoyed every memory we've mad but now its time for you to show me if you can handle yourself. Thanks for eveything and enjoy your jerks im always here when you need me but when you treat me like dirt then we are done!