What do you do when this happends?

OK so you know my bdays coming up (not excited) and I don't have anything to do. I know my friends want to come over but I don't know what I should do. I really don't want Bliss to be like feeling this is her fault but its mine because I should of asked about her plans My bad hahah. I just need ideas so I could do something instead of being on my computer all day which is what I'm guessing I'm doing to do. I wonder if I could have my cousin Johnna over. I love Johnna she makes me happy. She is so funny and I love to talk to her one because shes only like 6 mouths older then me and she goes though the same things I go though but shes a little more luckier then me lol. Inside joke between me and her. I just got off the phone with her anyway and she just got into a High school Trinity if that's how you spell it. Congrats Johnna Marotta ;). So anyway back to the subject I need ideas for what to do. My whole family is gone and I need some things to get my mind off of a few things (boys, school, boys, family, BOYS) Yes lots of boy problems how exciting. So what would you think if a ex-boyfriend gives you a forward about being a good boyfriends what should I take that as. He wants to be friends again or get back together for the 3rd time or what. He gives me to many mixed signals jeez. I don't even know if I like him anymore. I think I moved on but I really do think about him more then I used to before we stoped talking. Then we have another boy who im insanly in love with but seem to always make fun of him the chances i get. I mean I dont know if this thing is love your just a bunch of anger. I mean come on we stopped talking after we kissed. Whats the big deal anyway? I dont see it. I get it, it was a mistake but I sure as hell dont regret my actions. But yeah need ways to help me. COMMENT PLEASE NOW

News

YES!! Got the new dog and he is so cute. Im so tried though. I can't help but think about valentines day. I have no boyfriend, i gave a flower to TREAVER oopppss. Well when he gets it i better be far away from him or im screwed. I know i would laugh about it and stare at him so what should i do???

Again

How many times do I have to be the one to lose and let people come and go. I learned to not trust people with my feelings and I do it again. Geez old habits are hard to break. I might not have a party on my bday because I really want Bliss to be there. If that means anything to you which I hope so. Another birthday alone and sad. How thoughtful mom and dad. Hey I get a dog tomorrow which is excting. I just feeling my depression coming back and I can't feel that way anymore. I felt that for way to long but somehow my depression gets the best of me and I lose all the people I love. How this happens I dont know why? Can I be lonly again. I just got a new text from phil and that makes me happy (dont ask). Im falling again and somehow this feels different than before when I had these depressed times. I feel like I will fall but I will literaly have nothing left to help me up. Why is that? If anyone cares anymore please help. Maybe this is all because of my birthday. I might not even celebrate it this year, I really dont care anymore. HELP ME PLEASE!!!

Katie

Happily ever after

You know in story books where the pretty girl gets the handsom guy. THEN WHY THE HELL DOESN'T IT HAPPEN TO ME???!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?! I unfortantly want a gay, mean, dork kid not any popular guy and thats what I get for kissing him too. OOOPPPSSS my bad. Hahah I hope one of my friends gets there love. If i had to chose i would let them have there love first then me because im really afraid of my Happily Ever After. Im not joking really I dont trust guys I never have hahah. Why couldn't they all be like the handsom, strong, friendly hero huh? But i bet they all the guys want us to look like Victoria Secret Models but thats in our minds and does anyone really look like that in real life who isn't boilic, aneraxic, or always getting plastic sugrey? Well who im in love with doesn't look or act for what people want but does that make him an ugly freak? No. I want a real guy haha and then I will get my Happily Ever After!!!!

Valentines Day Almost here!

Oh I dont really know what I think about V-day. I mean I like seeing people like my friends happy and being in love with there boyfriends but I have never had a boyfriend no matter what Megan says ;) Well love is somthing that isn't easy for girls who are as fat as me to get. I have alot of guy friends yes but that doesn't mean any of them like me hahah. I love happy people but when people get lovy dovy then i puck!!!! Ohhh well as long as my heart isn't broken on Valentines day then i really dont care about it as long as the world doesn't end becuase I want to get to my bday hahah me=selfish hahaha TTFN aka ta ta for now

Suagr

suagr is awesome hahaha LOVE IT!! sooo hyper. I burnt my tounge and it really hurts like bad. Saddness ohhh well SUGAR hahahahahahahahahahahaha laughter i no this whole thing was just random.

Wow

Again this happends for the 4th year in a row. My parents will not be home on my birthday :(. This time its not for a wresiling tronament thanik god but its still for my brother Mikey. This isn't Mikeys fault and it will never be i no he is getting older and now hes gowing to a college tour for him. My parens are the ones to blame. Its not fair all i do is make them happy they can't even spend my birthday with me. My friends are coming over the night before my birthday and when they leave on my birthday i will be alone again. Yes im very upset about it. I just found out first of all so they wouldn't of told me. I might go to my cousins house for my birthday because im going to be alone on my birthday. I just dont get it i mean this happens all the time the 4th to be alone and sad on my own birthday. Hope your happy Mom and Dad your left me alone and sad thanks alot.