Is this really how it ended?

My best friend in the whole world left me and never came back. She didn't really leave me but she left our friendship hanging for people who don't even care about her. I was pushed around way to much from your other friends to stay. You may think I'm a jerk but you know you'll do the same one day. I had to take my time healing but I'm not done. You called me way to many names behind my back to let you in again. I hope you will find the truth about them. I did and it wasn't pretty. I can't take the pain anymore. I cry and cry over what happened but will it ever be different with you? I though i could handle it for you but you never stock up for me but the worst thing was that you went along with it! I have better friends now and I'm sorry for all of this but i cant take all of this hatred, lies, and being fake lightly. I hope you and me with come back but first let me heal and take my new friends.