My Brothers

Me and my brothers somtimes dont get along and i scream i hate you. I really could never haha. Mikey and I are always clashing heads but I know he cares for me because i once mention that some kid kept picking on me and he was all like "where does this gay fag live i ill crash his tiny face into the cement." I was embressed yes but i also was glad that he would do that for me. Then we have Dominic. He is my best friend in the whole world!!! yes we fight but hes can make me happy in secounds when im down. He is soo funny. I know that sisters and brothers are supposed to live eachother all the time but that never happens does it. And i dont think and how many times i say it i dont think i want a sister. I dont think i want my brothers anyother way then they are now. I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!

My bday

only 16 more days until im 13. How fun hahah. Not all that excited for my bday this year. I dont know why i just dont want to grow up haha. I love everything it is and I dont want it to change. Ohh well 13 doesn't seem so bad i guess i mean im in the teen years right hahahaha so when they ask you if you need a kids menu you say NO hahaha. I laugh alot don't i haha.

Really?

Could i really be happy? Or is this some kind of other demation. I have the greatest friends and it making me cry right now. My friends really have my back no matter what. I deal with a lot and sometimes it hurts way to much that i give up. I could have never of had gone through it without all of them by my side. I hope you all care about this but if you dont then thats fine. I no I had to go to the consulers once (EEEWWWW) because some one thought i was depressed which i wasn't but at least i knew some one cared about me to tell someone. All i know is that all i have dealt with is starting to go away. Some how it doesn't feel real. Could i mess this up? Is this a dream? I mean i have been in drama along LONG time and its sometimes all i can talk about. But Carly, Megan, Bliss, Melissa and many more people have shone me that life isnt all about fights or drama, it can be fun and all i can hope for is that is will last hopefully. How anyone could have ever been in the situation I was in and take it littly would be that day where i will kill that person haha because they dont have a heart. Thanks i really do feel amazing not great at home but when im with you guys you make me feel like im a million dollars and i havnt felt this way in a long time. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I coudlnt tell you how i feel becuase you guys did alot for me and I really REALLY apperatate it.

Family Problems

Jeez I am the 5th wheel in my house.I cant stand all these problems. My parents wonder why i stay in my room so long. Theres always somthing that me and my mom or brother mikey are fighting about. "Ohh you are just PMSing Katie." Really you never really know my problems at all. I have been deling with them all alone and knwo would ever know my problems and how cares huh? NOT YOU. i somtime am just ignored but why i dont know. I just am in a rut waiting for my mom to care. I felt i could tell her anything until she started babing them to my family and its annoying. I dont say any of her secerts. No one really will understand huh? Hahah i really am in a hell of a mood. I just dont understand my family. They never had love so they dont know how to show it unless its getting us presents and then telling us that we are the bad children when they never got anything. Well then i would rather give back everything if you were more like a friend paremts instend of mean crazy protective people. I mean im really dont with all the fighting so there

Snowday Blues

UGH I miss my friends at school!!!!! Im soo fucking bored. The only thing i seem to day all day is play on my laptop. well anyway rightnow snowdays suck. I wish somthing cool would happen like the power goes off or somthing. Ughh thats all i do on snowdays and well think of the love of my life.... i am not going to tell your freaks who i love sooo SHUT UP. Oh well enjoy the snowdays

Fitting in

I have never felt like i have ever fit in at my school. Im always on the outside alo and scaried. I have friends behinde me but how long will they stay. Its not them you see its me. I can be a total bitch and thats when everyone leaves. I have had that happen alot latly. I miss my old friends but they don't care anymore. Why should i? I still dont know what trust is and i used to but a lot of people hurt me and i cant feel that way anymore until..........

I finally got one person or well a few people behind me. I hope they stay for a long time but who knows i could mess up again which im hoping not. I still dont think that everything will be peacy. I still have scarres from all the lies but some have vanished. How i dont know. Well the people im talking about are the usual people. It kindof seems like they are my only friends. Yes I am a loser for all the people who would like to know. HAHA

Anime

I blame half of my friends for me watching anime. My friend Carly was the one who really showed me my fav hahah wont tell you the name because of MEGAN. HAH me and carly have to many meromies with it. Mines the Prince and he is so the oppisite of me LOL. Carly has the gothic angle form hell. HAHA love that name.