FINALLY

HE TALKS TO ME AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM sooooooo happy!!! Omg he makes me laugh im going nuts! I still love him. Im so happy. Oh but bad news is people make fun of my boots. SCREW U well not carly because she is one of my BEST FRIENDS and well anyone of my friends but not gabby or claudia they just suck. OHH WELL HE talks to me hahah me happy. OH 5 more days til my bday hahaha and 3 more days until my small "get together" with me friends hahaha weirdness ggggrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaatttttttttttt!
OMG im so happy. I bet no one knows who im talking about. OK heres the riddle hes in 8th grade and thats it. Now i know.


GREAT DAY

YOUR IDIOIT FRIEND
Katie

Today was freaking awesome

OMG i dont think today was anything but awesome!!!!!!!!!!!! I ketped laughing in gym *giggle giggle* And today on the bus some one who means alot to me started talking to! It made me soooo happy. Then the other person who means alot to me and who megans think i dated twice which in my fault started texting me. I know gay little things that make me smile

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK 2 things to tell you. One Thank Bliss for her amzing brain. She found a plan on having my bday hahah. GOOO BLISS. I owe you big time :D. Ok secound heres a pic of my new dog berkly. Hes only 6 months and if you think this is aldo theres him and compare him to Berkly!!! Tell me what you think

              

Berly

Aldo

New day. Thank god

Yesterday was just not my day at all. I hate those days so much. Its like 9:30 and no one in my house is up. Im just relaxin on my couch with my laptop listening to Kid your gonna go far by Offspring. My friend Melissa showed me this song. I love it mostly the part where it says Dance Fucker Dance :D. Well iu have nothing else to say. I no stupid post well who cares

Tired and sad

Good new and bad news. Bad news always goes first which thats what i do when i have a good test grade and a bad test grade. Ok so the bad news is that Im stuck inbeween having a friend and losing a friend. I mean shes been my best friend since 3rd grade but unforturely they people she hangs with are total jerks and call me name. I want to be her friend but i cant with those losers. She just cant give up her old friends becuase shes afraid she will hve no friends. Thats not true for her. Well she hopefully with figure that out soon. Ok for the good new well i made a good idea for my bday thing that i just cant figure out. I was going to post pone it and wait a weekend after but who knows if thats going to work. I was also thinking if i should even have a party at all WAIT can't hve it the weekend after thats Bliss's bday. Nevermind im not having a party its just way to hard. Now im tired, sad, and now upset. Stupid Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love.......

What do i love? I am not totally sure what that is yet. I mean I love my friends like sisters but other then that i dont really know what i truly love. I fell in love with many of my friends (treaver is not my friend) I just never get love. I mean when im in love its so noticeable and its sad. I start getting nervus and i seem to always seem to be staring at the gut i like and its just so pathict. I mean really pathic. Ya so for the people who see me looking around in Gym or the lower 7th grade hall then now you know why or well the people who know who i like. So ya i mean im not totally alone i guess but guys confuse me really. They say we are confusing but guys they could love you until the end of time but not tell you. I mean they are supposed to right? I mean why should the girl do everything for them. Oh well i can tell when some one likes some one its my talent but i never see anyone like me so i must be really stupid or im very unattractive. Im asumming the secound one is it hahahah

What do you do when this happends?

OK so you know my bdays coming up (not excited) and I don't have anything to do. I know my friends want to come over but I don't know what I should do. I really don't want Bliss to be like feeling this is her fault but its mine because I should of asked about her plans My bad hahah. I just need ideas so I could do something instead of being on my computer all day which is what I'm guessing I'm doing to do. I wonder if I could have my cousin Johnna over. I love Johnna she makes me happy. She is so funny and I love to talk to her one because shes only like 6 mouths older then me and she goes though the same things I go though but shes a little more luckier then me lol. Inside joke between me and her. I just got off the phone with her anyway and she just got into a High school Trinity if that's how you spell it. Congrats Johnna Marotta ;). So anyway back to the subject I need ideas for what to do. My whole family is gone and I need some things to get my mind off of a few things (boys, school, boys, family, BOYS) Yes lots of boy problems how exciting. So what would you think if a ex-boyfriend gives you a forward about being a good boyfriends what should I take that as. He wants to be friends again or get back together for the 3rd time or what. He gives me to many mixed signals jeez. I don't even know if I like him anymore. I think I moved on but I really do think about him more then I used to before we stoped talking. Then we have another boy who im insanly in love with but seem to always make fun of him the chances i get. I mean I dont know if this thing is love your just a bunch of anger. I mean come on we stopped talking after we kissed. Whats the big deal anyway? I dont see it. I get it, it was a mistake but I sure as hell dont regret my actions. But yeah need ways to help me. COMMENT PLEASE NOW

News

YES!! Got the new dog and he is so cute. Im so tried though. I can't help but think about valentines day. I have no boyfriend, i gave a flower to TREAVER oopppss. Well when he gets it i better be far away from him or im screwed. I know i would laugh about it and stare at him so what should i do???

Again

How many times do I have to be the one to lose and let people come and go. I learned to not trust people with my feelings and I do it again. Geez old habits are hard to break. I might not have a party on my bday because I really want Bliss to be there. If that means anything to you which I hope so. Another birthday alone and sad. How thoughtful mom and dad. Hey I get a dog tomorrow which is excting. I just feeling my depression coming back and I can't feel that way anymore. I felt that for way to long but somehow my depression gets the best of me and I lose all the people I love. How this happens I dont know why? Can I be lonly again. I just got a new text from phil and that makes me happy (dont ask). Im falling again and somehow this feels different than before when I had these depressed times. I feel like I will fall but I will literaly have nothing left to help me up. Why is that? If anyone cares anymore please help. Maybe this is all because of my birthday. I might not even celebrate it this year, I really dont care anymore. HELP ME PLEASE!!!

Katie

Happily ever after

You know in story books where the pretty girl gets the handsom guy. THEN WHY THE HELL DOESN'T IT HAPPEN TO ME???!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?! I unfortantly want a gay, mean, dork kid not any popular guy and thats what I get for kissing him too. OOOPPPSSS my bad. Hahah I hope one of my friends gets there love. If i had to chose i would let them have there love first then me because im really afraid of my Happily Ever After. Im not joking really I dont trust guys I never have hahah. Why couldn't they all be like the handsom, strong, friendly hero huh? But i bet they all the guys want us to look like Victoria Secret Models but thats in our minds and does anyone really look like that in real life who isn't boilic, aneraxic, or always getting plastic sugrey? Well who im in love with doesn't look or act for what people want but does that make him an ugly freak? No. I want a real guy haha and then I will get my Happily Ever After!!!!

Valentines Day Almost here!

Oh I dont really know what I think about V-day. I mean I like seeing people like my friends happy and being in love with there boyfriends but I have never had a boyfriend no matter what Megan says ;) Well love is somthing that isn't easy for girls who are as fat as me to get. I have alot of guy friends yes but that doesn't mean any of them like me hahah. I love happy people but when people get lovy dovy then i puck!!!! Ohhh well as long as my heart isn't broken on Valentines day then i really dont care about it as long as the world doesn't end becuase I want to get to my bday hahah me=selfish hahaha TTFN aka ta ta for now

Suagr

suagr is awesome hahaha LOVE IT!! sooo hyper. I burnt my tounge and it really hurts like bad. Saddness ohhh well SUGAR hahahahahahahahahahahaha laughter i no this whole thing was just random.

Wow

Again this happends for the 4th year in a row. My parents will not be home on my birthday :(. This time its not for a wresiling tronament thanik god but its still for my brother Mikey. This isn't Mikeys fault and it will never be i no he is getting older and now hes gowing to a college tour for him. My parens are the ones to blame. Its not fair all i do is make them happy they can't even spend my birthday with me. My friends are coming over the night before my birthday and when they leave on my birthday i will be alone again. Yes im very upset about it. I just found out first of all so they wouldn't of told me. I might go to my cousins house for my birthday because im going to be alone on my birthday. I just dont get it i mean this happens all the time the 4th to be alone and sad on my own birthday. Hope your happy Mom and Dad your left me alone and sad thanks alot.

My Brothers

Me and my brothers somtimes dont get along and i scream i hate you. I really could never haha. Mikey and I are always clashing heads but I know he cares for me because i once mention that some kid kept picking on me and he was all like "where does this gay fag live i ill crash his tiny face into the cement." I was embressed yes but i also was glad that he would do that for me. Then we have Dominic. He is my best friend in the whole world!!! yes we fight but hes can make me happy in secounds when im down. He is soo funny. I know that sisters and brothers are supposed to live eachother all the time but that never happens does it. And i dont think and how many times i say it i dont think i want a sister. I dont think i want my brothers anyother way then they are now. I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!

My bday

only 16 more days until im 13. How fun hahah. Not all that excited for my bday this year. I dont know why i just dont want to grow up haha. I love everything it is and I dont want it to change. Ohh well 13 doesn't seem so bad i guess i mean im in the teen years right hahahaha so when they ask you if you need a kids menu you say NO hahaha. I laugh alot don't i haha.

Really?

Could i really be happy? Or is this some kind of other demation. I have the greatest friends and it making me cry right now. My friends really have my back no matter what. I deal with a lot and sometimes it hurts way to much that i give up. I could have never of had gone through it without all of them by my side. I hope you all care about this but if you dont then thats fine. I no I had to go to the consulers once (EEEWWWW) because some one thought i was depressed which i wasn't but at least i knew some one cared about me to tell someone. All i know is that all i have dealt with is starting to go away. Some how it doesn't feel real. Could i mess this up? Is this a dream? I mean i have been in drama along LONG time and its sometimes all i can talk about. But Carly, Megan, Bliss, Melissa and many more people have shone me that life isnt all about fights or drama, it can be fun and all i can hope for is that is will last hopefully. How anyone could have ever been in the situation I was in and take it littly would be that day where i will kill that person haha because they dont have a heart. Thanks i really do feel amazing not great at home but when im with you guys you make me feel like im a million dollars and i havnt felt this way in a long time. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! I coudlnt tell you how i feel becuase you guys did alot for me and I really REALLY apperatate it.

Family Problems

Jeez I am the 5th wheel in my house.I cant stand all these problems. My parents wonder why i stay in my room so long. Theres always somthing that me and my mom or brother mikey are fighting about. "Ohh you are just PMSing Katie." Really you never really know my problems at all. I have been deling with them all alone and knwo would ever know my problems and how cares huh? NOT YOU. i somtime am just ignored but why i dont know. I just am in a rut waiting for my mom to care. I felt i could tell her anything until she started babing them to my family and its annoying. I dont say any of her secerts. No one really will understand huh? Hahah i really am in a hell of a mood. I just dont understand my family. They never had love so they dont know how to show it unless its getting us presents and then telling us that we are the bad children when they never got anything. Well then i would rather give back everything if you were more like a friend paremts instend of mean crazy protective people. I mean im really dont with all the fighting so there

Snowday Blues

UGH I miss my friends at school!!!!! Im soo fucking bored. The only thing i seem to day all day is play on my laptop. well anyway rightnow snowdays suck. I wish somthing cool would happen like the power goes off or somthing. Ughh thats all i do on snowdays and well think of the love of my life.... i am not going to tell your freaks who i love sooo SHUT UP. Oh well enjoy the snowdays

Fitting in

I have never felt like i have ever fit in at my school. Im always on the outside alo and scaried. I have friends behinde me but how long will they stay. Its not them you see its me. I can be a total bitch and thats when everyone leaves. I have had that happen alot latly. I miss my old friends but they don't care anymore. Why should i? I still dont know what trust is and i used to but a lot of people hurt me and i cant feel that way anymore until..........

I finally got one person or well a few people behind me. I hope they stay for a long time but who knows i could mess up again which im hoping not. I still dont think that everything will be peacy. I still have scarres from all the lies but some have vanished. How i dont know. Well the people im talking about are the usual people. It kindof seems like they are my only friends. Yes I am a loser for all the people who would like to know. HAHA