Anime

I blame half of my friends for me watching anime. My friend Carly was the one who really showed me my fav hahah wont tell you the name because of MEGAN. HAH me and carly have to many meromies with it. Mines the Prince and he is so the oppisite of me LOL. Carly has the gothic angle form hell. HAHA love that name.

weekend BORING

ONMONMONMONMONM that is the sound when you eat. I dont know im so bored. LOL i get to go bwling tomorrow but not all that excited. Have a cold but i dont really care. Stay on my computer all day OHH WELL im already fat hahahahaha. Playing my trumpet because i have a playning test tuesay. AHHHHHHH -_-. OHHHHH NO MY DOGS GOING TO EAT ME jk again really bored blah blah blah blah blah.

Me the goofball

I have writen alot of bad things that have happened in my life but what about the good things i have.
I have made alot of new friends this year withour really knowing it. I mean i knew these people but really weren't as good as friends as we are now. I might get a new dog Berckly i have no idea how to spell it. I am way happier now with my new friends. I mean i had good ones before but they just weren't that nice to me. I can go crazy without worring about what people say anymore. I got my personality and i love being me and if you dont like it I DONT CARE. I have a new laugueg with me and my good friends. I go to the mall like every month and i have to much fun for a girl like me. I know some people think i shouldn't be me and be like the cool kids but who on earth is that fun at all??????? ORANGE. I just ate an orange im insane i lost my sanity years ago OOOOPPPPPSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is normal?

Everyone tells me im not normal but what is normal. I no i am never be normal compared to the other people at my school but who says that they're normal. I am a goofball and LOVEING IT!!!!!! I just can't stand the fact that its weird to say somthing normal. I mean I am sure im not normal of even close but i still want the person who is completly normal to to comfoward to show me what it is. I love being me and thats all to it but really when you call me unnormal think about it what IS normal?

Pep rally

Today pep rally. I really embressened myself today. IT WAS SO FUN!! Megan and I were dancing like freaks of nature or well i was. Then all of a sudden the assistant prinple comes and looks like he has PMS or somthing and tells up to sit down. WHATTTT??????? Its a pep rally supposed to be peppy? I goth and i was having a better time then the cheerleaders. I went nuts and we were dancing to my song Taco. I was in line for lunch and it was taco day so i made a sone about tacos and its one word TACOS. Anyway, everyone of my friends told me i looked so hilarious but when i got on the bus this asshole next to me tells me
"Everyone in the 8th grade things your retarded" and im all like "What you have nothing else to do all day but harass a 7th grader wow low." That got to him. He didn't talk the whole bus ride when he always calls me goth or somthing. Wow i was soooo happy for once without being called a name. It was nice but i felt bad for what i said well not too bad really. But anywho to day was super fun hope to get yelled at again soon!!!

How could i have lived without you?

I ask myself that everyday. You and me were attached like sisters. But now its hard to believe that ever lasted. I have always wanted to be there with you when you need help but why is it that you always pick the ones who dont care? I mean im always there for you and stick up for you but you never do the same. I can tell I dont care or am not there but thats a lie. I hope that one day our friendship will grow large like your heart but until you leave them I dont know what to do. There fake and always take behind your back. How can you not care? I though it was over but we r still good friends but you know when you need me I will always be there. I enjoyed every memory we've mad but now its time for you to show me if you can handle yourself. Thanks for eveything and enjoy your jerks im always here when you need me but when you treat me like dirt then we are done!

Why?

The reasons I'm goth..............

1. Black looks good on me (or I think so)
2. Hating my parents
3. getting left out
4. Lossing my best friend
5. lossing all hope that I'll ever fit in
6. Being rejected by my one true love
7. Being called a slut for a mistake
8. Being called emo or dumb so far my 7th grade year
9. Lossing all Faith in myself
10. Lossing the one person who I really still care about my Great Grama Smith

All those reason hut but I am who I am. You might think im heartless or emo Some call me satin when I don't even call you names? I get back on my feet don't I? You all can call me what ever you want, it's not going to change me. I smile and laugh, i dont sob for no reason. I dont cut myself when my world falls down. So show me what you got and i wont care. You can call me all the names you want and it will still mbe meaningless to me. It doesn't even make you look cool. If im the one sticking up for myself then why harress me? You will lose I promise you that. I got 2 feet and I'm never holding back. Come get me I will always be 2 steps infront. Now tell me is t worth it now? I can show you hell any time but your not worth fightting with. When you really know me for me not for my looks the I wont hate you. I have stregth and weaknesses and I can use them to my advantage. Now last time is it worth it to you to make fun of people now?

HEY YOU PEOPLE

Hey im sick of people calling Bliss emo GOT IT!? I look like her and when you called me heartless then whats wrong with you? You act to cool for school and like your just the greatest thing living. Why keep lieing to yourselves? I may seem like a bitch but im not. I love having fun hanging with friends and goofing off. Even though i wear black and your PINK does that make you better then me and Bliss well I think not. We may even be better then you. See we dont call peoples names because they're different. Now please you think you can hurt us think again. Ohh mess with any of my friends I will kill you with my thumb. If you dont think thats possible just watch me. I love all people I have respect for but people like you and your friends I dont like and i kinda HATE you. When a girl like me so laid back and fun doesn't like you, you got yourself into hell. Now wait when you mess with my friends i will be coming!!

Trevor

I know he will never read this and i dont want him too, well not yet. Im too afraid of him and every time i see him in gym or the halls I get all scared and run away. How can I feel this way toward a guy who I hate. Time for me to come out with the truth. Im done lieing my heart is shattered by everthing that has happened. Why couldn't we have been like 2 normal kids in middle school. Just be friends and hang out, joke around and ya. I cant hide everything I have done to him and myself. I ruined it and I just laughed it off. Was it more serious then i thought? Well to him it was, I can't take the pain anymore. The pain has gottan to much to handle. My best friend Melissa has a super awesome boyfriend and everyday I want that. I screwed up really badly but I dont regret it. I am who i am and for then people who thinks he's ugly or a jerk SHUT UP. I can say that i have a perfecly good reason to but i dont. I dont care about him, but he is not a terrible guy. I hope that he doesnt hate me too much for screwing up and i dont expect him to be my friend anytime soon. I am finnaly glad to write down my feeling and relax.

Carly

SQUUUUUUEEEAAKKKKKKK!!!!!! I love this show its hard not to watch it. Soo anyway I am super excited to be really close friends with you. I love hanging out with you and I totally love SQUELING with you. All the things we do together mean the world to me. How close we are and hopefully how close we will get will just be amaxing. Being weird is our specialty. Buttery popcorn is SO good. Your really a true friend carly and i hope you remember that!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING ME BFFL

The girl things

The girl things are........
1. Putting on makeup
2. Fixing hair
3. Looking Good
4. Being cool
5. Weight watching
6. Going to the mall
7. Buying expanive clothes
8. PINK clothes
9. AERO clothes
10. Aerocbie clothjes
11. Bath and Body Works stuff
12. Facebooking everyone they know
13. Lisening to the hot music
14. Getting into Drama
15. Getting back together
16. Getting boyfriends
17. Bragging abour doyfriends
18. Lieing
19. Losing Fake Friends
20. Making BESTIES


Girls got it hard and know one knows how much girls do to feel good. This is mostly everything but if I thought of all i would be up to a million easy. Some one who is super lucky doesn't go though this but i dount thats anyone. Hope some guys will understand this but why would they. They have other things to deal with but not as much as us girls LOL!!!

Melissa

Melissa,
I know that im not the best friend for you but everything you have done for me is just AMAZING. I had a deep dark past that you pulled me out of and i hope that you take that to heart. I can't stand him anymore but you know some of the truth. There is nothing i wouldn't do for you. I can't believe you are that awesome that you do that for me. I know that im younger then you but I hope that doesn't matter to you. It matters to some people thou. All the memories we have and hope will share will be awesome and are. I can't wait till you make a blog if you want because I want a comment from you. THANK YOU SOO MUCH

Facebook?

Most of my friends dont have a facebook. Neither do I. Whats the point anyway? I mean its not cool to yell at people though the internet. I also can't stand that makes a differce in popularity in school. Why does there have to be a popular group huh? It doesn't make you any better then me or anyone else. I mean i cant stand my school!! We have so much shit in it. NOW, IM TELLING YOU PEOPLE IM DONE WITH YOU! We can be way better then anyone else in this world but being popular doesn't mean crap. You can't go to college with a application that says "Hobbies- Being Popular, Sports- Being Popular," That isn't going to help you one bit and i assure you of that. Hope people will think twice about facebook and being popular.

Losing

I have lost a number of times. If you mean lost a game then yes but im talking about somthing close to my hear. I have lost a few friends over the years. Lost a few guys in the past. Lost some one close to my hear but look im still here aren't I? I can't give up when some one tells me its never going to happen. I may not be the greatest person but does that mean im going to be homeless or lonely? No. I am going to lose all my life but the best thing to do is to get back up. I lost my grama last year, i lost Phil my old best friend. I can't keep losing but thats what happens. I also lost well a guy that i really liked but its all my fault but I can't just sit here and do nothing. Losing is a way of life. I can always get up and brush it off. Whos with me?? Comment PLEASE!!

Hey Soul Sisters

Its not the song I am sorry this is for my SOUL SISTERS

MEGAN,
I already wrote you somthing but I dont you know that you will always be my bestie for LIFE and BEYOND!!!!

CARLY,
AHHH THE PRINCE AND IKUTO!!! The best time EVER!! I know that we will be forever and always be friends like Su and Ran. Hope you will be my BFFL For ever goofball.

BLISS,
Who poked me???? Its you YAY!! Im SOOOOOO glad that we are friends. Thanks for letting me read your poem first. That made my day. Hope like you said that we will make so many memories together.

CAIT,
Heyy, we are soo mean to Owen aren't we. OHH WELL. We are just that awesome. HELL YES. LOL opps I cant stand to not see your goofy faces all day!!!

JOHNNA,
You may be my couusin but your are my fav cousin of all. I love making goofy faces at random people and singing and doing skits in my basement. I love you, Johnna! Hope you will always know that!

SAVANNA\H,
I know we have had rough spots in our friendship but that doesnt ever mean its over. Hope that all the things we have done will always be enough. Can't make everything perfect but all I want for us is to be friends Until we die a happy and long life. I hope you know everthing I am saying is true

Gym Class

Wow, hate gym already. SHOCKER. So gym class is nice with carly around but then again I have the 2 people i hate the most in this world we live in. Jake and Trevor!!! Jake some how thinks its funny to call me goth and emo. Hes a jackass and I have no time for him. We is a waste of space. He may be cool with this friends but harressing a 7th grade, PATHATIC!! Then we go to Trevor, hes a complicated story. I hate him with all my heart but my heart tells me not to hate him. Then what should i think about this loser?!? They story behind him is that I didn't always hate him which was the problem. I should of hated him for like humping my friend that he likes but some where along the way I found it funny. What was i thinking? Was I high or messed up? Nope I was falling for him. I never wanted that to happen at all but it did. SCREW YOU LOVE!!!! But anywho there is a part in between that i dont really like talking about so as that part comes to mind and i try to block it. After that it was like it was this hatered that grow and I would never let him bother me again but now.......... GYM CLASS!!! I have never wanted a class with either of those too but now I have to spend a whole semster with those loser. School this is all you fault!!

The perfect boyfriend for me

They perfect boyfriend would be a guy who doesn't mind to be crazy and have a time to be stupid. Loves me infont of everyone. Holds my hand in public. Hugs me without me asking. Says "I love you, Katie" when im mad at him or for no reason at all. Becomes random at anytime of the day. Calls me at 3 am. Talks to me about his problems. This guy better be out there some where or i would really be mad. I want no need a guy like that. but some how thou i dount i will find him anytime soon.

School.

Why is school a popularity contest? Its not fun when your not one of them. You get treated differently and and looked at like your a freak. Some how thou in all the choas of school and the people in it you notice that most of the people who are popular cant stand it. I have or had a friends that i learned resantly that she hates me and just acts so she can use me or what ever. Sarah is her name not Sarah H but Sarah P. She was always kind to me before anything was named popular or cool. We were great friends but she meet Lexi and to this day i dont like her. She may be a nice person but not to everyone. I know I may not be the coolest person like them but at least im honest with myself. I dont have to treat people like they aren't worthy of my friendship but treat them the same or like an equal to me. Thats how i think school should go. No Popular and for what i no is there is a group 1 and 2 to see who is more popular then the other. WHO THOUGHT OF THAT?????? This is how my school life goes and this is how I know it as. Some day some one out of the cool group maybe even people i dislike suck as Ryan, Eric, Austin, Jake, Jen, Jen yes there is two jens i hate and there are many more who make me sick to my stomack when i see them at fake and weird. Im a weird person and a gothic one but that does not make it right for you to make fun it me or anyone for that matter. I really hope you people dont mess with my friends or me. Guess what if you do then I will beat you up with a spoon if i have to!!!!

Me just Me

Ok I just want to tell you about me. Im Katie, I love the colors Purple, Black (goth i know), Lime Green, and orange. I love pretty little liar which is a show by the way. I play the trumpet and its so fun but my teachers aren't. I can take a joke but i hate when they go to far. I watch Shugo Chara which my besties Carly and Bliss showed me. My fav character from that is The Prince. HES MINE BACK OFF!!!!! Love hanging with friends. My laptop is awesome. Texting = awesome. Don't know what chicken fries are. Dancing in my room when no one looks. Readuing forbidden love books NOT TWILIGHT!!!!! Ummm...... well going crazy every once in a while. Laughing for no reason, looking goth, always making my friends laugh with stupid jokes that are not funny. Sitting doing nothing. Hating gym, like i said wonder about what chicken fries, and most of all loving my dog and the greatest thing ever Aldo.

Trust

Trust. There is never trust. Some one will always lie to you. Say things behind your back and you will do the same. I have my friends have but we are human. If you say you have never lied, you just lied. Lieing happens everywhere and its not the greatest thing to do but its not bad either.I mean would you tell some one to there face that they are dumb or stupid or annoying? No, you wouldn't and you will say yes. I would never call some one a liar when they call me somthign wrong beause i do the same. OH WELL, i enjoy being a liar but im not a liar all the time. LOVE ALL

Love

I have been in love a number of times, some how with me luck, they always end up gone like nothing happened. I always wanted to kiss the right guy, hug a sweet heart, tease a boyfriend. I have never did any of those things right. I have failed with guys. When I day fail I mean FAIL. I never liked a popular guy, never liked a goth, but always liked people in between (carlys blog go see it). I had difficulies with guys but when I had my last crush, it went up in flames. Then somthing hit me like a thousand pounds that i dont need a guy right now I'm only 12 turing 13 next month. All i need right now is the love and support of my friends and guy friends!

Is this really how it ended?

My best friend in the whole world left me and never came back. She didn't really leave me but she left our friendship hanging for people who don't even care about her. I was pushed around way to much from your other friends to stay. You may think I'm a jerk but you know you'll do the same one day. I had to take my time healing but I'm not done. You called me way to many names behind my back to let you in again. I hope you will find the truth about them. I did and it wasn't pretty. I can't take the pain anymore. I cry and cry over what happened but will it ever be different with you? I though i could handle it for you but you never stock up for me but the worst thing was that you went along with it! I have better friends now and I'm sorry for all of this but i cant take all of this hatred, lies, and being fake lightly. I hope you and me with come back but first let me heal and take my new friends.

To my best friend Megan

Megan,
You have seen me at my worst and I will always remember you picking me up. When i was at my worst some how when no one could cheer me up you did. I really do admire you. You have seen me with the worst friends i could have possibly had. You pulled me out in the nick of time when i was about to go crazy. Megan please remember this i will always be there for you even at your worst. I PROMISE YOU ever time you need my help i will be there for you. ILY!!! Your one of the top BFFLS i have. Thank you

Gothic ways

Who in there right mind thinks it is ok to tell people they are goth? But for whatever reason for the title Goth you should show your true colors. I have enjoyed the last few months being harrest by people and being called goth. I have many friends like me and i really think that one day we will show those meam people who they are messing with. It bugs me somtimes but i have nothing to say to them. Carma can really hurt someone and i have had that experince way to many times. But that makes me a stronger person right? Anyway for that things i have wittmes and the things i have done i will never regert them and NEVER regert one I am inside.

Friends

You may think you have no friends but u do. I didnt think my life could suck anymore then it did like 2 months ago but everything has changed. I got a new friend Bliss C, we hated eachother last year prob for somthing i said and for what ever that may be I really do regert it now. She is an amzing person and if anyone of you hurt her i will brake your face in secounds. Then i also have Carly S, we werent the best of friends last year but like i said everything has changed and me, her and My other best friend Megan has spent a lot of time together. She is super funny and very creative me on the other cant do anything with drawing, writing or and thing with art well. But then you come to Megan K, me and her have been friends for a long time now and we keep getting closer everyday we spend together. I really hope this friendship will last and be much better then my last. I want to thank those and lots of other friends i have for sticking with me this year and helping me off the ground when i fall. Enjoy the nice weekend you guy!!!